梦想。幻想。理想

还多一小时，就二十四年了。

如果有人问我现在最想要的是什么？

我第一件事就是希望一家人可以快快乐乐的生活。



懂事开始，

开始觉得人生不是很快乐，

每当看见别人遭遇比我悲惨时，

觉得自己依然还有幸福的待遇。



虽然过去不能尽是如意，

但偶尔还是有丝毫的满足，

因为还懂知足常乐这道理，

但却只能短暂的安慰自己。

未来日子依然没保障。



如果时间能随意转动，

希望能快点跳到终点。

一切圆节了，也接受了，

现在不必为未来感到不安。



走到了今天，

突然有点顿失最初的理想，

过去追逐的目标已成今日幻影。

感觉就像枉走了一段日子，

时间也这样一直在消耗。



不知不觉已走了到今天，

突然感觉有点老了，

前途也不见一片光明，

何时才能拨开那乌云，

期待的曙光越离越远，

花样年华也渐渐成了幻影。



也许是时下电视剧和小说的影响，

让我一直憧憬超乎平凡的未来，

这是幻想还是理想？

是不成熟，还是不认命？

也不想去决择。



现在还是停顿在分岔路口。

没有灯塔为我照明前方路途，

只能向现实环境挣扎，

朝恶劣之中努力寻找出口。



有时觉得孤单沮伤，

孤独上路没人安慰，

寻寻匿匿难以抉择，

深怕自己做错决定。

很想快点找到出口，

但是途中依然忧郁。



低头，认命？言之过早！

我还不想认命，我还期望改变！



也许有一天躺下时，

觉得自己身心疲累，

对这重担已觉厌倦，

那是时候放下执着，

做个平凡简单的人就好了。。

我快乐吗？

忘了什么时候，
脸上已好久没扬起灿烂微笑，
只记得是好久之前了。
什么是开心的事？
如果是别人觉得好的事
会是我值得开心的事吗？

今天的我快乐吗？

时间无声无息划过我的身上，
不知不觉数十载已飞逝
回想过去的人生，我曾经快乐吗？
未来的未来，我又能拥有快乐吗？

当下次梦醒起来，
又是多少个十年？
我还记得我的笑容吗？
我还记得如何展露笑颜吗？

还真是记不起上次是的开心是几时了。。。

未来的我还会展开心怀开心的大笑吗？
我得加快脚步找寻快乐的泉源，
追寻属于我要的幸福
也许历经千山万水或是耗尽一万光年，
我也得追逐下去，这是我不灭的使命。

告别了，一切珍重

不知不觉，告别的季节慢慢促进，
我们即将对那三年半的情感告别。
一生人也许有很多次告别的机会，
这次告别为何却那么伤感与难舍。

回想起当初在这里开始的新生活，
大家从陌生人慢慢变成熟悉好友，
我们就这样度过了漫长的三年半。

我们共度了许多时光，
我们也曾经同甘共苦，
生活学业上互相扶助，
遇到挫折时互相扶持。

我们遇见带来喜悦的人，
我们遇见带来伤害的人。
要感谢喜悦为我带来快乐回忆，
也要感谢伤害带来茁壮的成长。

漫长的三年零六个月，
回想起仿佛是昨日的梦境，
一切事件依然飘旋脑海里。

昨日一切种种，
也许不值留恋；
也许刻苦铭心；
也许永远怀念。
我们相处了多半年，
却多了万分的不舍。

如今风儿轻轻奏起离歌，
告别的跫音已慢慢响起。
我们即将各自去告别，
追逐当初理想与梦想。

然而思念也化成缕烟，
飘散在这零散离别的季节里…
彼此来个小小约定，
我们的友谊不会轻易结束。

朋友的祝福就象天上的星星。
当星星出现时，
代表远方朋友正在关心你，想念着你。

当看不见天上星星时，
并不代表朋友忘记你，
而是他们被乌云挡住，
无法闪烁在你的眼前。
天上的星星是永恒的，
我们友谊也是永固的…

也许在千百年以后，
经几世纪大自然转换。
一天，星星也将坠毁在黑洞之间，
我们的友谊也会烟消云散。

一切早已事过境迁，
谁都将忘记谁是谁。
我们早已一身尘埃，
化成春泥滋润了大地…

What do i did before back to UUM for the LAST 7 DAYS???

Nothing special for my short break at home except FLOOD again at my hometown...

i was rest enough for these few days at home, sufficient food and over sleep for everyday, and my mood was pretty good, but except for the saturday is special (14/11/2009)...

i was awaken by my younger sis at the morning 10 when i was used to sleep at 5am , because i have to go to MEGAMALL PACIFIC BUTTERWORTH to pick my cousin, sis and my only niece ah girl...

Ain't she's cute? 1st time publish on blog, she got bit shy shy la..

i'm adnes, everyone call me gingging or ah girl..

at noon, we having lunch at a restaurent which was located inside the MEGAMALL, XXX Delighted...

I FOUND something strange on the menu, NO51 蓝带猪扒, i got no idea bout that, then start searching arounf the menu...

finally i found its pic... NO51, i stil wonder what it will contain inside...

i'm not dare to try, at last i orderred TOMYAM RM5, looks nice but tatse soso only..

after having lunch, i planned to run home d, but my mum saw this event and she want to stay and watch, nothing can do when mum strongly want to stay to watch this singing competition, at the backdrop there stated will start at 3pm, but it start after 30 mins late.. shit, watse my study time!!!!




i was dissapointed and suprises bout the participant performance, but as a audience standpoint what i can says is, "It's really small size event, no need to expect more"... the sound system was not perform well!

finally the competition was end and i start my journey home..





OMG it's heavy rain!!!!


i almost can't c the road, but i still able to take a pic with 1 hand (only 1 hand hold the steering). KENG!!!

15/11/2009,

IT's time to back to UUM for exam study as promised to myself before..

my mum prepare alot of mood and i 'da bao' lots of laksa for my friends, unfortunately i dint take the pic for the foods,

BUT.....

i'm succeed tooks video while i'm driving to UUM...

i drift with the train, finally i cut it and many cars (that time 1 hand take cam, 1 hand hold steering) KENG!!!!...

after that, i'm only realise i got potential to join the FOMULA 1...

am i KOD( King of drift)???

when nearly reach UUM, i saw the sky is dark.. think gonna heavy rain soon, but no...

Finally have to back to UUM environment, have sit on this narrow place for 7 days for exam study...HAIZ!!!!

梁文音-哭過就好了 MV & Lyris

旁白：我从来都不说不，

不是因为我愿意，

是因为我爱你

我从来都不生气，

不是因为我没有脾气，

是因为我爱你

我从来都不哭，

不是因为我没有眼泪，

是因为我爱你

【紫玫瑰】電視劇片尾曲梁文音 - 哭過就好了

詞: 姚若龍曲: 陳小霞

不喜歡懷疑什麼 並不表示我沒有感受

看你微妙的變化 慢慢不同

我不是生氣 只是心痛

最討厭被誤會了 但越解釋越覺得難過

可以說人會變 但不能說

你會這麼做是我的錯

哭過就好了 伤都會好的

這樣相信所以深呼吸著割捨

愛是為了擁抱 為了牽手

不是為了爭吵 為了調頭

哭過就好了 痛都會走的

記憶有限 所以它會淘汰壞的

失眠聽歌 想念雖然苦澀

還是謝謝你讓我長大了

越多美好堆疊的過往

想忘就得推倒更大的悲傷

要找勇氣卻不在口袋或手上

但它一定在我身上某個地方

Exam + Dismiss = Complicated heart...

Tml 15/11/09

im so sad that i'm going back to the jungle d even though i'm going to stay there for 7 days only and it's my last 7days university life...

WHY?? because i have face my exam again..

The last two exam, company secratary and thoery for accounting practise...

I hate exam... because my look will became like this...

and then too stress, finally faint jor...

i wish i could escape from exam soon ever..

but i love the moment share with my buddies,

i wish to have frens like this esp hot gals...haha

but i still appreciate that all i have...

Can u promise to HOLD the friendship we have?? YES I CAN!!!

A small Alor Setar Trip...

Again, a night without sleeping. im extreamly tired when the moring has come, because it's my dating time with roomate, and two litter cute juniot. it's makes me quite excited..

This morning we depart at 8.15am, thank you for bok eng.

First destination is going to have dimsum breakfast at alor setar '斗母宫'

the environment at here is quite suprised use, it designed and surround is quite class and peace. but in term of pricing of course...



must take a pic before we go and this is my nice roomate.

Next, we are moving to Muzim padi with located at Gunung Keriang

the outside view of Muzim Padi, It's look abit weired...





what interesting we hav found inside is, at the top floor there has a big wall paint. it's in round shape, what you need to do is just sit on the chair and the floor will move slowly. You can see there is the a scenery about Kedah, mostly is paddy field and kampung structure. Besides, there also exhibit the things about how the plant the paddy and product...That's all for that!!!

i was wondered with this aquarium, all the fish were freeze. izit sleeping? of course, same as the worker there.

arhh...i'm pulling a buffalo!!!

again, take a pic before we go.

Next, we continue our destination to makmal sains negara, It's cool and such a funny place! must go and u!!!

ah, i found my childhood memory here...

cool?

mirror mirror, i want to gain fat..

i can easily adjustr my weight, finally i become fat lo.

we are super model!!!

After this, we feel hungry already, it's time to get McD, at star parade pacific

My Lunch!

my Fun Fried! yeah!

Next, we toward to KL TOWER!

opps!! sorry is Alor Setar Tower... It's Second highest building in Malaysia wor...

the view from the tower

again and again, take a pic before we leave...

at last, FORBIA2 at Jitra Mall...

The sound effect of this movie really frighten us forseveral time, but finally it's end up by comedy story... i rated this movie 3 start out of 5